well well well

ok since i have gotten mixed views on my blog on sex...i have decided to suspend it for a while...coz hey i am not here to hurt...

well well well...there are so many things i wanted to blog abt...but i guess since the time has passed, i might as well let it go...i wanted to mention abt me being aired on tv...for like milisecond and then having a close affinity to hardworking children...well...but thats that...

recently i have been faced with a dilemma though...wat can one do if he or she has changed drastically over a time of 1 year...and later found the older you...do u stay like u r or do u change back to older you...i guess everyone has to face similar cliche at some point of time...

for me as it goes...total solitude is a solution...for once you figure out urself then u can grip hold of the surroundings..but in this world can one get part solitude if not total?

no natural spaces left, no soothing sounds for streams...our nose does not even get colder in the wind anymore...its such a stuffy world...yet ppl run behind it...

sometimes i wish to become a billionaire and own an island and stay in population of 100...or return to 4 centuries back...earn money the hard way...work 16 hrs a day and get a peaceful sleep...no cafes, no restaurants, no bike or cars...just a stretch of grasslands...a horse and dog for companions...with a straw hat and big boots...just walking to find work and working to find peace...no music, no loudspeaker...the loudest sound that of the breeze....and of course....a partner to be with....

well well well...

wat say?

the part two of ***

back again with more views on sex...well i feel that i have to express on this topic...coz if i am conversating with someone on this subject, they might missunderstand me...or consider me as a nymph...both are untrue...

the new thought araised while i was reading the book - atlas shrugged by ayn rand...AMAZING book btw...so anyways she expresses her views as...sex is real when both ppl consider themselves equivalent...that players are nothing but kidding themselves, where as they have low self esteem on the contrary to what they portray as...

well i couldnt help but appreciate her analytic thought...evne i had similar ideas abt seeking partnership...if u r weak, overly sensitive...in short sad...dont look out for love or sex to protect u or save u or make ur life full of colour...coz all u might know...it might be just pseudojoy of few minutes and back to sad life.....

as i see it a person should be complete in his own life...i mean he should be satisfied and at peace...i know it sounds wired...but its true..coz then when u get a chance to experience physical joys...u are in it fully...its not being done for a feel better act...its done to enjoy the moment with u and ur partner...mutually...i believe its far more better..

also another aspect is that if u are indulging in physical activity out of stress or despair or desperation...well the other person comes to know of it...even if u dont hint it....and spoils the whole thing...

well lemme know ur view on the blog...

thats it for now..

bye

the true about the ***

well no matter how modern you are or orthodox...one thing is alway just around the corner of ur mind...yes ppl i am talking abt the three lettered word that esp. indians dont talk on large...sex

we see it in all movies, mentiones or hinted on tv....ppl doing it all the time....but then many of us are actually deprived and guilty about it. we cant help but always wonder about some or the other context about sex.

if we forget it for a day, the world around us reminds us...so no use being all saint abt yourself.

we do despise the thickly romantic and players but we do wish to plung into a whole new land like indiana jones, on an adventure...which many of us dont end up doing..just dreaming.

but the thought that crossed my mind is...why do we indulge into thinking so much over it and instead not do it...on an average a youth thinks abt sex for say about half an hour a day..makes 3 n half in a week and 14 in a month...now imagine what its like in a year...

the hours he or she spents in order to make himself or herself as an 'irresistable' candidate...five times that of the thought process of sex thoughts...

the chances of getting laid?? maybe once or twice in a year..sad really..but this is the average...

atleast thats wat my current research and resources suggests..

also to be honest i am thinking a lot abt the way society and individual react to sex...they have stereotypes for it...its sad that one cannot venture along without having few eyebrows raised in his direction..

there is also a fine line between the playboy types and the honest venturer types...to be honest how can u tell the difference between the two??

lemme think over it...

but for now...c ya..

back and back again

ok i am habitual to disappearing randomly...and i am back..and give me sometime to get into my form to start bloggin...bloggin is actually not an addiction...out of site...out of mind..in my case...

one of my frnd told me that she has started blogging again...that reminded me to do this...thanx to her...

thats all for now

tc

A bookish idea..

so heres the thing...i have been gone in hibernation for a while to read books..like harry potter 7, that thing called love, five point someone, a bit of catch22 and the best of speaking tree...

i had heard ppl say that book r the best way to spend time, and that its kind of a frnd...and since my childhood i use to think that all book are writen by 'them'. them, u know the smart beings..but now that i have come to realise is that these are book written by ppl like u n me...

they r not gifted or smart but went a step ahead with perseverance, which most of us lack. i did probably come across a thought which might turn into a good book, or as now there is a craze of movie made from books...but i wont, coz i lack wat it takes to make it possible...

but then wat if most of us try writing a book...it wud me insane i thought to myself...then i realise something...i have heard some ppl say that u shldn't watch tv series or certain type of movie becoz they brain wash u....but isnt wat the books do that too???

i mean we have so much faith in book...but they r afterall written by us not super beings...then all r brain washin us...in a way to say...but we just accept it, read it and love it...but not thinkin that the only reason we appreciate them is becoz we think they r authentic...

i mean i dont know if it sounds sane...but u r being brain washed when u think u r gettin knowledge from the ultimate source...let it be any book...encyclopedia, fiction, non-fiction, biographies, to religious books

the author manupilates fact n true components in order to sale it...the authencity is vanishing...but still ppl are voracious readers..and that is upsetting me for some reason..i tryin not be cynical...but hey who knows maybe i am manupilating this blog to brain wash...

no one will ever know.....

I am not commercial !

haha...not literally...but today a friend of mine told me that by blog is not commercial one but more like a diary and thats like a good thing...

i had heard it before...many ppl got blogs n stuff and they get money according to how many ppl log onto it...so thats kind different...but i definately dont dig that...

thinking of it...my blog is more like a dialogue between me n the sometimes unknown readers....ha ha...whom i kidding...its something i like doing...dont ask me why...but it wud be more supportive if u guys COMMENTED...its not that hard u know takes like 2 min. i know that atleast 10 ppl read it...they tell me there views while chating on msn...but dont take time to comment!...come on ppl...tell me if i am getting better at it...tell me if i sux at it!...anything!

hmmm....well thats all i want to say abt that

i wanted to put in something new that i realised today...young ppl r completely freaked out over commitments...well thats not new...but think abt it...if u do find someone good and inturn that person likes u..ask ur self why not? esp. guys out there...

wat r u waiting for? a better person to come around? maybe he or she will come...but may not like u...
and regarding being true to that person? how hard is it? sometime easy yet other times crazily out of control....

the trick is analyse y u r out of ur track...n within few moments u will realise that its not u who is in the wrong shoe but ur wild side....sure i might get attracked to someone...100% probabilty...but then its the age...isnt it? at some point of time...maybe every 6 months on average u might meet someone worth falling for...but its not long lasting...

decide for urself....is this person goin to be significant in my life after say 3-4 yrs? no...buzz off!...yes...then in wat ways? as a frnds...as a milestone..as a companion...come on...no one is that dumb as to not know his or her demand....

also dont be self centered...let ur ego go...

sure the world is becomin sex freak day by day...but then there is definately a person out there who feels the same as u do...trust me...i can bet on it...ppl grow...they dont remain childish or wild for long...hehe...life screws them enough to make them sensible...

oh yeh n if u think that u feel attracted to someone else other than ur bf/gf just becoz u r young...then...think of a senario when u r lik 70 n u like ur neighbouring old guy better just becoz he got less wrinkles then ur husband !!!...lol..cud happen u know...life is full of opportunities...but doesnt mean u jump on every and loose ur peace of mind in couple of months...

choa....enough of doctor date!...

ok i am embaressed

my last blog was sad..i truely get it..i sux at it...i agree...but what is it that a girl got to do...even a guy for that matter...sometimes in life..especially when u r out of ur parents cosy shelter...when u come across the most outrageous experiences...and u dont know how to judge it..u dont know whether u shld laf at urself...or cry or just ignore the matter...i believe it hampers ur power of judgement too...

my problem is...

i always want to do the rite thing...n many a times..i do it on self toll..i go out of the ways to do a certain thing...n at the end somehow i turn up looking like the bad guy, selfish...many ppl have got that misconception abt me...that i am rude, arrogant, self-centered...not random ppl...but my relatives too...

and wat i hate the most is that i cant find words to make them understand my thinking...for eg: if i am put into some crap n i dont know wat to say or wat to do...i choose to keep quiet....n ppl misinterpret it....gosh...

n its not like i do everything as per ''what the society might say'' but on those lonely nights, on those lonely occasions...when i look back at my life and realise...that i was no good to anyone...i collapse...i cant look at myself in the mirror....not that i get depressed..but i feel worthless...

also i am sure all of us feel like that many times....then y still we go ahead to judge someone...when we know we r not good enough in our own consciousness...why we do that to each other?

signing off without an answer....