cant help but blog on pune...

its true, i cant help but blog on pune...i hate the place...hate the ppl...hate the general attitude towards life here...

but still few things i felt like sharing are out here...

1. our house cleaning lady - she said her son has failed in school, her daughter studies...but she doesnt know how to make her son study...now he failed a year...he is not dumb, nor uninitiative..he is suffering becoz of bullies and his solution to that is skippin a year.

2. the rickshawala - i hate rickshawala...but this one guy made a difference...he spoke to me in english..i was shocked but was too egoistic to admit it so i told myself he was a show off...turns out i was wrong...this man was retired...he spoke in fluent english coz he had a B.A. in English literature, he had a diploma in engineering coz he liked it...and later on workd in many famous foundries and industries...he taught himself all abt physics and math before learning engineering...

i was awestruck...i was still too adamant to accept i found someone out of ayn rand's book...further..he owned this rickshaw and gave it to some guy to rent...and after he retired he help that man buy a rickshaw on his own...so to get back the auto while not harming the other man...

3. the 'bhangarwala' - its a term used for ppl who collect trash like tins, glass bottle, etc by going from street to street basis and selling it off to get money...oh yeh and they collect it on 'hatgadi' which is a big cart on wheels very heavy to push...

so this man was old, when i say old i dont mean just old i mean a person who has worked all his life to get very little for himself, he looked tired, he was probably starved...he wore a red cap, his clothes were ragged...its was around 2 in the afternoon...damn hot and my mother and i were sweating and dehydrated...you can imagine the scene...this man cud barely push the cart he was so...god...i cursed myself for not asking him whether he ate anything or not...thats the least i cud have done...

i went and sat in a restaurent but cudnt bring myself to order anything...i was full of guilt..and i am still feeling guilty...i went out i looked for him...but cudnt find him...he must have disappeared into some lane..i looked for him and walked almost a km...but not use...

then it striked me...all of us talk abt one day doing some good in the world...but wat abt today? what have we done today? the least we can do is ask these ppl who try and survive without begging if they ate today...i still remember that man..and i wish peace on his soul and his life..

signing off with emotions
shruti

so many thoughts

today i had a detailed discussion on lots of topic with my LG...it made my brain work after a long time...

....i read a book...its known...'many lives many masters by Dr. brain weiss....excellent book...one must read it...i initially thought it hoax...but it isnt...i dint agree with all that he had to say...but i believed him....to be precise...my brain dint believe until half the book...but inside i knew it was true...

anyhow...other thought...i was walking over mula-mutha river...infamous...in pune of course...and it was so dirty...every year approx. one person commits suicide there and its so dirty...why wud anyone want to die in such a horrible place...its like a sewage...i was so grossed out with the thought...its horrible...

oh yeh...and wats up with swine flu H1N1...man i wish they cud find a cure for it...which as being a biotech student..i know how difficult it is...seriously where is the world headed?

the other day i was surfing and found a link which showed a photo of a 2 year old african boy...walking with a plastic barrel...the quote was...'he walks 1.5 km to daily to get water'...my heart ached....i am already a conscious water and electricity user...i further started using only what i really really need...

william wordsworth was right...What Man Has Made Of Man...

(a foto by mpcb.gov.in)

Twilight Fever

ok..i am hitched too..i admit the books drove me crazy but the movie and the utube interviews have made me an addict.

from past one week all i am doing is: check email and search more on robert pattinson.

God there is something about him which is very genuine at the same time i wonder if he a good person or not...everyone knows he doesnot wash his hair, keeps proposing to kristen (bella swan) is losing his mind bit by bit due to press pressure...he said he is scared of dating coz he doesnt want to ruin anyone's life...well if you act responsible i dont see how anyone can get hurt...and by saying this does it mean he wont date anyone...coz since he is young, his fame wont be convergent

anyhow...bigger the people, bigger the problem...

as for me...i love it...cant get enough of it...and i am not ashamed to say i google it every week...

The cliche of weddings

Ok, here is the thing, all my friends are mostly double. The most unexpected friend recently left back her single status.

Some are fixed with marriage commitments, others are shopping away in recession, without a concern, for their marriages.

So i inferred two things (A) I will be married sooner then I thought & (B) Life has changed!
I am no more a teenager, in few months I graduate, I will be officially an adult. i am no less than a baby when it comes to the thought of leaving college.

The memory is so fresh when my elder cousin told me before college had began - that these will be the best days of your life. I remember being aloof to the fact.

But then again after 3 months I will be telling it to all my juniors. Its not just about leaving away college or job or money,etc. Its simply the fact that my life will change drastically after just few year.

Some of my married friends (females) acknowledge me that 'I am no more myself, or what I use to be'. So every time the transition for women is much more than for men.

Isn't it sad? We worked so hard to get our lives right to get it as we wanted - we struggled so hard to make ourself as we are since the first time we realised we were an individual. We give it all up just like that in one day, in just few hours, we turn from a Miss to Mrs. - a smaller and different entity in a big household.

Don't get me wrong, I am not a female chauvinist. Its just that we educate women, we work equally with men. and yet what she is in her life is not payed much attention to by her blood relatives and nor by her 'in laws'.

bye.

i wanna be a rockstar

well it has been such a long long time since i heard a song that made sense...that wasnt meant for seducing, or traching someone...with a good beat...

well i heard rockstar by nickelback...awesome song...i am amazed as to how come for such a long time i havent heard this song before...

anyways..the song is perfect...great lyrics...great voice...good notes...well the guitar is perfect..not too soft nor too much...the video was also quiet impressive..they dint ruin it by showing chad kroeger....all the time...

well his voice...i am a huge fan of his voice....so i am biased there...

well i just cant stop singing that song...it just keeps going on and on...in my head..i was napping..and i was huming the tune tooo!!!!



lol...sure i wanna be a rockstar!!!


hehe

anymore good songs u know about???

lemme posted

chao..

well well well

ok since i have gotten mixed views on my blog on sex...i have decided to suspend it for a while...coz hey i am not here to hurt...

well well well...there are so many things i wanted to blog abt...but i guess since the time has passed, i might as well let it go...i wanted to mention abt me being aired on tv...for like milisecond and then having a close affinity to hardworking children...well...but thats that...

recently i have been faced with a dilemma though...wat can one do if he or she has changed drastically over a time of 1 year...and later found the older you...do u stay like u r or do u change back to older you...i guess everyone has to face similar cliche at some point of time...

for me as it goes...total solitude is a solution...for once you figure out urself then u can grip hold of the surroundings..but in this world can one get part solitude if not total?

no natural spaces left, no soothing sounds for streams...our nose does not even get colder in the wind anymore...its such a stuffy world...yet ppl run behind it...

sometimes i wish to become a billionaire and own an island and stay in population of 100...or return to 4 centuries back...earn money the hard way...work 16 hrs a day and get a peaceful sleep...no cafes, no restaurants, no bike or cars...just a stretch of grasslands...a horse and dog for companions...with a straw hat and big boots...just walking to find work and working to find peace...no music, no loudspeaker...the loudest sound that of the breeze....and of course....a partner to be with....

well well well...

wat say?

the part two of ***

back again with more views on sex...well i feel that i have to express on this topic...coz if i am conversating with someone on this subject, they might missunderstand me...or consider me as a nymph...both are untrue...

the new thought araised while i was reading the book - atlas shrugged by ayn rand...AMAZING book btw...so anyways she expresses her views as...sex is real when both ppl consider themselves equivalent...that players are nothing but kidding themselves, where as they have low self esteem on the contrary to what they portray as...

well i couldnt help but appreciate her analytic thought...evne i had similar ideas abt seeking partnership...if u r weak, overly sensitive...in short sad...dont look out for love or sex to protect u or save u or make ur life full of colour...coz all u might know...it might be just pseudojoy of few minutes and back to sad life.....

as i see it a person should be complete in his own life...i mean he should be satisfied and at peace...i know it sounds wired...but its true..coz then when u get a chance to experience physical joys...u are in it fully...its not being done for a feel better act...its done to enjoy the moment with u and ur partner...mutually...i believe its far more better..

also another aspect is that if u are indulging in physical activity out of stress or despair or desperation...well the other person comes to know of it...even if u dont hint it....and spoils the whole thing...

well lemme know ur view on the blog...

thats it for now..

bye