I am not commercial !

haha...not literally...but today a friend of mine told me that by blog is not commercial one but more like a diary and thats like a good thing...

i had heard it before...many ppl got blogs n stuff and they get money according to how many ppl log onto it...so thats kind different...but i definately dont dig that...

thinking of it...my blog is more like a dialogue between me n the sometimes unknown readers....ha ha...whom i kidding...its something i like doing...dont ask me why...but it wud be more supportive if u guys COMMENTED...its not that hard u know takes like 2 min. i know that atleast 10 ppl read it...they tell me there views while chating on msn...but dont take time to comment!...come on ppl...tell me if i am getting better at it...tell me if i sux at it!...anything!

hmmm....well thats all i want to say abt that

i wanted to put in something new that i realised today...young ppl r completely freaked out over commitments...well thats not new...but think abt it...if u do find someone good and inturn that person likes u..ask ur self why not? esp. guys out there...

wat r u waiting for? a better person to come around? maybe he or she will come...but may not like u...
and regarding being true to that person? how hard is it? sometime easy yet other times crazily out of control....

the trick is analyse y u r out of ur track...n within few moments u will realise that its not u who is in the wrong shoe but ur wild side....sure i might get attracked to someone...100% probabilty...but then its the age...isnt it? at some point of time...maybe every 6 months on average u might meet someone worth falling for...but its not long lasting...

decide for urself....is this person goin to be significant in my life after say 3-4 yrs? no...buzz off!...yes...then in wat ways? as a frnds...as a milestone..as a companion...come on...no one is that dumb as to not know his or her demand....

also dont be self centered...let ur ego go...

sure the world is becomin sex freak day by day...but then there is definately a person out there who feels the same as u do...trust me...i can bet on it...ppl grow...they dont remain childish or wild for long...hehe...life screws them enough to make them sensible...

oh yeh n if u think that u feel attracted to someone else other than ur bf/gf just becoz u r young...then...think of a senario when u r lik 70 n u like ur neighbouring old guy better just becoz he got less wrinkles then ur husband !!!...lol..cud happen u know...life is full of opportunities...but doesnt mean u jump on every and loose ur peace of mind in couple of months...

choa....enough of doctor date!...

ok i am embaressed

my last blog was sad..i truely get it..i sux at it...i agree...but what is it that a girl got to do...even a guy for that matter...sometimes in life..especially when u r out of ur parents cosy shelter...when u come across the most outrageous experiences...and u dont know how to judge it..u dont know whether u shld laf at urself...or cry or just ignore the matter...i believe it hampers ur power of judgement too...

my problem is...

i always want to do the rite thing...n many a times..i do it on self toll..i go out of the ways to do a certain thing...n at the end somehow i turn up looking like the bad guy, selfish...many ppl have got that misconception abt me...that i am rude, arrogant, self-centered...not random ppl...but my relatives too...

and wat i hate the most is that i cant find words to make them understand my thinking...for eg: if i am put into some crap n i dont know wat to say or wat to do...i choose to keep quiet....n ppl misinterpret it....gosh...

n its not like i do everything as per ''what the society might say'' but on those lonely nights, on those lonely occasions...when i look back at my life and realise...that i was no good to anyone...i collapse...i cant look at myself in the mirror....not that i get depressed..but i feel worthless...

also i am sure all of us feel like that many times....then y still we go ahead to judge someone...when we know we r not good enough in our own consciousness...why we do that to each other?

signing off without an answer....